Even though I feel happy in school...in Beijing...I still feel that I don't belong at times. It's quite sad...though I have good Chinese friends that I do get along well with...fantastic buddies in class...nice people in CCAs...huge network of fellow SG friends here... Perhaps participating in more activities helps...perhaps knowing more people soothes the sense of loneliness that I feel once in a while...but it feels really really empty deep down. Sometimes, I have no idea who to turn to when I need a listening ear...who I can look for and cry my heart out without fears of being betrayed. I feel as if I'm taking a risk everytime I confide in someone...friendship seems so fragile. Perhaps it's really hard to find true friendship in a big world out there. Occasionally when I wander on the streets, I feel lost..Lost in this big big (and polluted) city. I wouldn't want to go back home...I feel like wandering somewhere....far away..
Just like the rest of my JC khakis, I miss the good old times...and when I read about them having gatherings back home...there's a tinge of soury feeling somewhere out there. I miss 73...I miss dear Wanz where I can tell her everything and anything...I miss DK and my family.... It's hard to be strong sometimes...I don't like telling myself: "Be strong....things will get better." It's so fake.
But I know everything comes with a price...there's got to be a sacrifice for everything somewhere.
茫茫人海中....我找不到一个最熟悉的陌生人...
InDuLgeD~|7:29 PM|
^yUnz^
21. 25th Feb 1987. pIscEs.
A clash between Idealism & Realism
Learning to appreciate simplicity in a complicated world.
In the mOod for chocs!
It's not that chocolates are a substitute for love. Love is a substitute for chocolate. Chocolate is, let's face it, far more reliable than a man. ~Miranda Ingram
Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you are going to get!
"There are two kinds of people in the world. Those who love chocolate, and communists."
~Leslie Moak Murray in ‘Murray's Law’ comic strip
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feeling: =) thinking of: holidays! watching: - wishing for: tHe dAy tO cHill wItH a gOod bOok learning: Table tennis! reading: The 8th Habit loves:
Kinder Bueno Chocs!
IKEA furniture
Kueh Bangkit
sNow!
西红柿炒蛋
酸梅汤
Pocky (Choc)
K-box what's left: movie recommendation: Cape No. 7 last DVD watched: Iron Man last updated: 13:00 9 Jan 2009 coming up next:
finalterm exams no. of days back to SG: 5 days no. of days back to BJ: - day Other involvements:
SICA(学生国际交流协会)
爱心社护老祖
手语分社表演组
NEAN 08 OC
FACES 08 OC
Dharma class
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