Life has been nothing but sadness and melancholy for the past few days...Wanna say sorry to my Mum for erupting my anger and stress at her. But I just can't understand why she's always choosing to avoid going to family gatherings..and in the end I'm always the one who gets bombarded with questions. (It's been going on for years..but recently she's been declining all sorts of invitations to family gatherings.) Or maybe interrogations? Was pretty pissed off by my brother initially...but now everything's fine and I'm feeling the pinch. ^_^ Was supposed to help Dad do some quotation stuff but ended up falling asleep immediately when I reached home on Thursday night..really sorry. Bro came back from camp and he got really annoyed that Dad asked him to help instead. Then he got even angrier with me for not doing it..but eventually he complied but did a terrible job out of it. He spoilt the printer and I had to take the blame for him..sigh!
That afternoon, WX and I were blasted by Mr Wei regarding the USB port. It's truly not our fault...yet the blame was thrusted upon us totally. He complained that we are all so busy with our stuff that no one is doing Hua Yun..what was I busy with? Huang Cheng. " Can't u prioritise Hua Yun?"..he said. Ironic. Words coming out from the Huang cheng-teacher i/c. Hua Yun 29 was supposed to be published during mid Dec and yet dragged on due to unforseeable circumstances. By right, it wasnt supposed to clash with Huang cheng...Just felt that it was unreasonable of him to just point fingers at us when he didn't really see how much effort we've put in..redoing..while some people probably didn't contribute much. Empathised with WX when she was accused of printing Photography stuff in LEP room and installing "pirated Adobe software". She did the latter for Hua Yun! OMG..there was only 1 comp with Adobe and we had to rush our work that day..all the way to even 9pm ++ in school till Uncle Chong came to lock the room. The whole "interrogation" left us both teary-eyed..yet there were so many things that he didn't know behind the scenes.
Was pretty down when I went back to help my hua zhuang juniors. Hope they didn't take it to heart. Whenever I hear that some juniors are quitting for some particular funny reasons...it gets very discouraging. Guess we gotta make do with what we have. Really pity props..huang cheng is in crisis! Pragmatism has clouded everyone's heads..
Oh..class outing on Hari Raya Haji Holiday was quite ok...went cycling for 2h and sun-tanned for 1/2 hour with hooxy, pork and XY. Maybe I shouldn't have gone for the outing..maybe I should have given some excuse like someone so i can rest..sigh..really dead-tired yet I thought if i didn't go..i would be letting the class down. Went home after that..blasted by my brother for not going BBQ earlier while they were having fun swimming at the condo. Didn't wanted to go again..but thought they might get worried. Went with puffy eyes (that's what they said--thought my eyes looked normal) after quarrelling with Mum...got everyone worried and started rounds of questioning. Worst still..uncle stephen was practically trying to persuade me to join "Law faculty" at NUS at this time. Oh man..when will I get out of this vicious cycle? I envy my elder brother at times..though he's physically and mentally strained in camp..at least he doesn't have to bother about problems at home...and when he comes back..all he can do is go out and have fun. i'm supposed to mediate when my parents quarrel..supposed to solve all my younger brother's problems..supposed to "entertain my younger cousins"? I'm not pushing responsibilities here..but I'm really feeling the heavy load on my shoulders at this point of time.
There are so many problems now..really at a loss. Communication..communication. Yes..we communiated..but apparently everything happened not just because of poor communication. Don't wish to start off a year like this. Someone enlighten me?
InDuLgeD~|9:20 AM|
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21. 25th Feb 1987. pIscEs.
A clash between Idealism & Realism
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